Monday, February 7, 2011

An Easy Way

There are a lot of easy way out of problems that we are facing, going to face, or had faced.
The question is :
Are we lucky enough to find the way?
Are we game for the consequences of these easy solutions?
Do we wait for the chance to use the easy method which mite just be ages before we get the opportunity?

Some people are lucky enough to get a windfall or well just be lucky to achieve something. But calculating the probabilities, it's one in a blue moon? or even one in " less than a blue moon" Not denying that some of them are naturally born with certain criteria to gain that easy path or have worked really really hard to get it. So instead of dreaming of getting that chance to be lucky or succeed. Why don't we work hard to earn a degree or an education or work hard to climb the ladders and so forth, WHILE dreaming and waiting to get that precious opportunity.

Why don't we do also the long and hard way but of course make sure it's worthwhile. So goodluck and Ganbateneh ^^

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Singing

Presented a song for Ibu Zain PAP Celebration 2011...
Wanted a song that has erm chinese feel to it
Chose 潇洒走一回, but there is this long instrumental part in the middle, i dunno wat to do. Initially got help for ppl to dance during that part( thanks a lot) but coz it's a bit hard on them, so I say I'll change song...
Choosing songs to sing is mad job for me...
Struggle to choose a song, those good frens who are Jay Chou's fans suggested a number of his songs. I'm not a fan, dun listen much to his songs, not familiar wif his style, most importantly dunno how to sing his songs; there's them who are his fans, listen and memorised his songs, so familiar wif his style and noe exactly how to sing them WELL... So, it's weird who would be better suited to perform his song? U say?
So got stressd up over wat song to sing... God, stressd up over singing, after all these years of singing... Then an idea to combine three songs ( a medley) AHA!!!
潇洒走一回, The Greatest Love of all, Gemilang !!! 1 Malaysia! this seem great, all I have to do is combine the minus one together... And I got it done rite b4 rehearsals. Great.
Then, these 3 songs needed "iron lungs".. me tak ada itu ah!!! boleh nyanyi sampai gemilang 1st chorus, the last chorus I need back up and oxygen tank would be a great help... So stress again. change song
Frens were very supportive 千里之外, 发如雪, 菊花台 and many more... one more day to the nite... gosh memorise the lyrics and the song... wich to choose. break down, u all can sing these songs better than me lah, Kenapa u all dun wanna go perform T,T after trying 千里之外 for some time, change to 发如雪... here come hell!
I plugged my ears till it hurts and almost 18 hours non stop playing this same song... I was trying darn darn darn hard to memorise the lyrics... and gosh, it's only repetition and yet i cant remember. till the very evening rite b4 the celebration, i still cant get them rite. Frustnya... I start hating Jay even more since then... sry
when it's performance time, guess wat... I mumble the song thru... embarassing... haiz
but our PAP celebration was way good. the deco was fantastic, the lightings, the atmosphere, we have them all. Kudo's to all of the 1st years in Ibu Zain. We did a really good job!
So, nvr in my life singing brings me this much of stress and Jay, I wanna love you but, it just doesnt meant to be... sry
hahaha.. oh ya thanks to jet, bossie, mk and tinglee and others for being so helpful and supportive ^^

Something I fail with flying colours all the time

Sometimes I can't help but thinking how i wish i had a best friend (male) erm a bosom friend, since childhood, young, same class till adolescence... My gosh, so ungrateful, as if I dun have great great, unbelievably good frens around me. I have a lot (thanks guys) of them, and they are real "fantabulous". Just wished at times to have one i can called out anytime of the day or nite, go anywhere his house, my house, a rendezvouz ( no gf mar, so rely on each other dulu lah). A companion, can talk anything wif.. literally anything. coz to me, there's still stuffs that u can talk more comfortably with the same gender compared to the opposite sex.

Where I fail? Being a good fren to all of them... I admit in past friendships or even now some of them, me not good fren at all... I take but I dun giv much...I speak like (as) a self-centered person... Being that one true fren that have most of the qualities a fren shuld hav... The hardest lesson of all or experience, makes me more so aware and careful now when i start getting good frens again. it makes making good friends, better rapport hard, coz I'm more so afraid then ever to make the same mistakes again. But somehow or rather I'm like starting to get in the same path again consciously but now more so cautiously.

Yeah, I fail but still learning. It's weird coz these qualities are like wat ppl, normal humans would have in them. But I'm still trying to learn ( a green horn, learnt this from a fren in college)

Friends huh... Again I'm really blessed to have all these great ppl around me. Thank you... Thank God. Happy CNY ^^ may all of you be happy and healthy... And ur dreams come true.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

All Because of A Pipe

Stood under the hot sun yesterday, from like 11-2pm? Well, I'm not suppose to grumble or complain bout anything, after all I'm not the one doing the work, hehe... My uncle is... I was just there holding the umbrella providing some shade.
Mum, told me the day before yesterday someone broke the pipe after the water meter outside my house. Resulting in a total lack of H2O in the household. Teruknya. (act, not that teruk also lah, I wasn't at home till somewhere around midnight) When I was told about that, the first culprit that crossed my mind is the aunty down the road whom we had some friction with a week ago (that's an entirely diff story, nt to tell here. Don't want someone to know, hihi...) But then, I quickly shoved this thought aside and told her it might be an accident, which she disagreed. Anyway, without any proof or witness (aside my dog, Lulu who guards the outside) we can't blame anyone. At that time, I was in total control of this brain, defending it from all those negative thoughts, keeping that poise and decorum intact. haha. It all changed when I was in bed, all those thoughts came flooding into my mind. (Bad mind, bad brain) And I start to worry for my dog and my family, so I said a prayer to God. And I slept....
Talking bout that, I realised I'm becoming insensitive. How do I describe it? No, not that I'm insensitive towards people's feelings. More so, insensitive towards stuffs that sorta welcomes trouble? It's kinda inaccurate to put it this way. hmm... Or more so, I'm going with the flow? Just let things happen as it is, at the same time, don't worry about it or think about it, don't blame people, let them be right, let them say all they want, and just let these incidents pass. If they insist that they are right, and demand compensation, let them have it... bla bla something like that? Laid back, as Pn Nooraihan puts it. Still not sure...
Right then, got the H2O back in the house already. take care everyone...

p/s, Checked the location of the pipe yesterday, it's too near the wall. No car could purposely ram into it and break it. Plus, the dog barked before it happen. hmm, something smells... ... like a fish...

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

There's A First for Everything

Signed up for this for no obvious reasons. This person here is really using lesser and lesser of his brain. haha.
Well, there are still a lotta customisation to do, not sure how to though. Gotta consult people for this, i guess. It's just like every other thing you do for the first time, it's new and bound to have certain areas that you had never encountered before. That leaves a big question mark "?" for us to whether venture into that kinda space or to refrain from it.
Of course, there's a solution to almost everything (put an "almost" there, just in case, not sure whether there's stuff that has no solution to it. Not using my brain to think again ^^). You can go search for the answer, ask for it, or well, make a mistake and learn it the hard way. Nevertheless, whichever way you choose, courage is on the line.
"... You gotta be, you gotta be bad, your gotta be bold, you gotta be wiser.You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger. You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm, you gotta stay together..." chorus from the song "You Gotta Be' by Desiree. Be bold and wise in whatever you do.
Ok then, next time. Lazy. In the mean time, take care...